⚠🔨Undor canstruction 🔨⚠

people ask me "what do yhou want as a gift"
i dunno
they keep asking me
everyone asks me
it's exhausting and i feel like shit for not having a good answer
for not wanting things

or sometimes I'm doing very badly
im suffering
people ask "what can i do to help"
i have to look them in their eyes and tell them "nothing"
and these fuckers
they refuse to believe me
and maybe they shouldn't
I don't know
I don't hide my suffering because I don't want to be helped
I hide it because their "help" makes me suffer